My day got EXTREMELY better!!

So today started off a REALLY bad day.  Lets just say my weight has been the main cause of my unhappiness lately.  I think I was realizing that I wasn't seeing a difference anywhere.  I was getting irritable and even started a fight with my hubby, which I regret more than anything!  I will have to make it up to him once he gets home!!  Well, the day goes on and everything just brings me down and upsets me even more.  Well outside I realized something, my size 15 shorts were falling off of me.  So I ran inside and tried on a 13 and low and behold, it fit!!  Well they were kind of stretchy so I tried on another size 13 and I was able to button them up and everything!!  It's amazing how one small thing can change your day around completely like that!!  So I did my workout with more intensity than I ever have and plan to do the rest of my workouts the same!!

Yay!!

So, now that I've finally figured out what I want to do with my life...I just want to get started!!lol  I wish I had my degree already so I could start working!!  I am actually looking forward to hopefully one day teaching High School English!!  I hope I can make a difference in at least one student's life!  I know HS teachers don't make much, but I just LOVE English and I think I would enjoy teaching it!  At least I hope I would!!lol  Also, my passion for writing will allow me to write on the side hopefully!!  I hope to one day be published!!  I'm already working on one novel!!  I hope it's good as I imagine it!!lol  Tell me what you guys think of this?!  Be honest, you won't hurt my feelings...well maybe a little!! ;)

Feeling Better!! :)

So after my horrible day the other day, I've had a pretty great weekend!!  My niece was here so we had loads of fun with her!!  Ended up going to a party on Saturday which was fun too!!  And today, my awesome husband Rob got me Turbo Fire for our anniversary gift!!  He is such a great husband and I'm lucky to have him!!  Plus, we did an awesome workout today which made me feel even better!!  Life is looking up again!!  Minus school!!lol  I just can't wait for Rob to be home and to spend our anniversary hopefully together!!  And hopefully alone!! ;) 

A low for me today.

So that dream I had last night is really getting to me.  Now I'm looking in the mirror and not liking what I'm seeing.  Instead of feeling up beat like I have been the last 2 weeks, I'm feeling down.  I really am not liking me today.  I know I should stay positive and be proud of what I've accomplished, but deep down I feel like that dream means something, just what?  I just hope tonight when I exercise I feel a little better about myself.  If not, I won't give up, but maybe not be as entusiastic as I used to be about all of this.

Don't know what to do?

Last night I had a dream, that to me seemed so real.  I've had dreams like this before, but they never seemed real to me like this one did?  Is there anyway to interpret what your dreams really mean or could mean?  I hope this dream doesn't come true, or hasn't already?!  What to do?  Sometimes I just wish I could turn my brain off and then maybe I wouldn't dream at all!!lol  Would make life so much easier!

So Wrong :(

I think it's so wrong for people like Casey Anthony to have kids and people who deserve kids sometimes don't get them.  Like me!  I should have two kids right now, but in 2007 when I was just 3 months pregnant I lost my baby:(.  There are people out there who deserve kids and don't get to take their angels home.  I just find it wrong.  Like some of my friends who have lost their babies and would make GREAT parents.  I just hope she finds justice and that no one buys her books or movies and she doesn't make a dime off of her daughter.  I mean she doesn't even seem upset that she lost her daughter, yet I feel sad for my lost angle all the time.  I just had to get this off my chest that she doesn't deserve kids and should have her tubes tied so she can't have anymore.

Losing weight!

So my goal is to lose 50-60 lbs!!  I'm tired of this weight bringing me down.  I never feel pretty or wanted, I just feel down and pissed off all the time.  I now get it that I'm not one of those girls that has a beautiful baby and loses the weight automatically!  I plan to work hard to shed these unwanted pounds!!  I use myfitnesspal.com to help count my calories and I use Just Dance for the wii and The biggest loser challenge for the wii!!  I am sick and tired of being so down on my self that I'm going to start working on me so I'm happier and healthier for my family!!  So Tuesday mornings will be my weigh in days since I started working out last tuesday!!  According to the scale I have lost 3 lbs!!  Go me!!  Now to weight myself next week to see how much I weigh!!

My first blog!

My first time posting!  I recently started my workout plan last week and can't wait to get started losing this baby weight!  My son turns 2 at the end of this month, where has the time gone?!  I will write more on this blog as days past!!  Just thoughts and ideas and maybe even a few poems when I feel motivated!  I started school again as well so I'm excited about that!  I'm hoping to get my English degree and teach HS English and write on the side!  So that's it for now...brain is too tired to function right now!lol